Well it's my two week anniversary of the surgery. It feels longer than that, but it's not. There have been some positive changes that I definitely want to post about because they have taken place in my "100% symptoms". Those reading with MS know what I'm talking about here. Since this disease is characterized by good and bad days in terms of level of function, there are some days where you can do more than others. But we also know that there are those symptoms that are always there no matter how good or bad you feel. For me two of those are my eyesight and my balance and coordination. Every time I get hot, my eyes go foggy. It looks EXACTLY like this: http://mult-sclerosis.org/opticneuritis.html . I mean exactly. The car on the right is when I'm not hot, or even warm, and the car on the left is when I'm hot. It does vary in terms of intensity with how hot I am, but it's never not been there. Not one single time in 8 years. Well this post is all about both a positive change and this is also where the poor judgement comes in. By the way, if that link doesn't work, just type it in; what are you lazy!
So my wife is planting about a 20 x 20 flower bed and the ground needs to be tilled. My good buddy has a nice tiller that he will let me borrow, so I volunteer to go get it. I would have asked him to deliver it a few months ago and that's the truth. So I get it home, we get it off the truck via ramp and I get set to show my wife how to operate this big boy safely. Well after I have her pull the start cord (not supposed to do too much with the right arm since that's the sore side, duh) I decide to demonstrate how to horse it around a bit and was just taken aback that I could even do it. My wife was kind of slack jawed and telling me to not continue, but she's amazed also. So I do the whole damn thing. It took about 45 minutes and it was in the direct sunlight and was in the low 80's temperature wise. Well I'm covered in sweat, and guess what? I could see just fine. I mean not even a little fogginess. Now my legs were absolute toast, but I didn't care, I could see and was hotter than a firecracker. Plus, I do really poorly on uneven ground, and I was MAKING uneven ground and walking all over it and not falling over. It was awesome. My legs even recovered rather quickly and I was very, very happy about all of this. So it ends up being a great day. I took a walk later in the day (that would never have happened a little while ago) and I was never dizzy the whole day (that has happened, but rarely, and never when coupled with this strenuous of activity). That is also my almost constant companion. And then later in the evening at bedtime? Let your mind wander but no pharmacologicals were required, 'nuff said.
Before I get into how that was really stupid, I want to talk about changes that I've noticed in my balance. When I go up stairs, I just kind of fall into the right side wall and rub all the way up. It's either that or have two tracks up both sides from my hands because I don't do stairs with out holding onto a wall, a rail, or on all fours. My wife is the one that pointed this out to me. I have just been going right up the middle for about a week now. And I also don't do the 'one stair shuffle' where you just do one stair at a time with both feet being on each tread before you do the next one. I've been doing them like normal for about a week. And I've been dizzy far less often. This is all really good stuff for me. Oh, and I haven't had an 'accident' since the surgery. Not even at naptime which is a bad time for that. So I am seeing some things in the areas that aren't just me looking for stuff to get better. I can't will my eyes not to go foggy. I haven't been able to will much of anything for a while.
So now the stupid part. I am so sore in my head and neck it's not even funny. I even broke down and took a percocet, but I coupled it with some nausea medicine and it actually didn't make me that ill. So I'll pay for that, but hopefully only for a day or two. Last night my head and neck hurt so bad it was like a couple days after the surgery. I'm typing this, so hopefully I just made myself sore and didn't aggravate anything. Why do I do shit like that? I was doing so good taking it slow, and taking "baby steps" as I know I should; taking multiple short walks to keep the legs moving and not lifting anything. Well I wasn't lifting the tiller, but people who have used one know it's not exactly mowing the lawn. It must be something in my psyche; "hey this doesn't hurt! Let's overdo the hell out of something!" Not wise and I'm pretty upset with myself, but hopefully it abates today. Like I said, I'm typing this, so it probably was just sore, but last night that dude really hurt. I am not returning to work until Monday of next week, so hopefully I get "unsore" and can post more good stuff; that is of course if things keep going in that direction.